Evenin', True Believers!

Yeesh, where do I start. Looking at my last blog post, it's crazy to see how much can happen in just a few months.. Let's begin with my head!

I'm a mess! The final bandage was ripped off, so to speak, and the floodgates opened. I told my wife e v e r y t h i n g that had happened to me. She's now processing it all. - I've typed and deleted the sentence that would have come after that about 10 times now: I'm still trying to kick the shame and self blame thing. So, I'll leave it at that.

The heated discussions and arguments the past few weeks about what happened in our relationship as a result of my experience have been taxing for the both of us. After each bout, though, we grow stronger. Considering married couples have left each other for much less than what we've got going on, I'd say we're going to make it.

I'm having flashbacks, now! And intrusive thoughts. Lots more anxiety, and the anger spikes are back. One of my therapists theorizes it's because I "picked the scab," and now everything I've repressed and tried to ignore is finally at the forefront of my mind. Luckily, I can recognize what's going on and address it, and with a little luck, it'll be a non-issue in a month or two. Therapy works wonders, huh?

That leads me to this plug: For the love of fuck, get professional help if something is going on. If you've tried and it didn't work out- some doctors are dicks. Try another! No, talking to friends about your issues isn't real therapy. Having that support is great, but isn't a standalone substitute.

Anyway, I leave the military soon! The job hunt is going surprisingly well, and I actually have 6 interviews in August! Gosh, I haven't done any in so long, I just hope I don't gaff. I love public speaking, but these one-on-three types are always nerve-wracking.

Speaking of jobs- I'm still open for commissions here! Short stories, resume editing, cover letter writing, beta reading- whatever you've got, send it my way!

That's all for today, Newgrounds. See ya next time!